Why The Hell Not

"Your social media is not for your friends. Your social media is for you, and your dreams, and your self expression. And it's meant to put something out in the world intentionally so that people who are looking for you and who need you can find you. That is what social media is for. It's the way that you do total immersion into who you're becoming". I just freaking love Mel Robbins.

I see it every day. I open Instagram and boom, some new cool business pops up. Someone I know is putting themselves out there, promoting their services. Someone's renovated barber shop, someone else has a new online thrift shop, that old friend who used to be miserable at their job and now they became a personal coach, you name it. Other people are doing it, why the hell am I still afraid of putting myself out there?

I think I know the answer, and it's not easy to admit. When you're such a perfectionist like me, which we all know now that's a red flag, you can tend to freeze at times when you are going to try something new. But here's the thing, not trying it is worse. It just brings more negative feelings besides the fear or failure. It brings guilt, remorse, frustration, anxiety, hesitation and all the other friendly voices in my head.

Here's the other thing. I know for sure that growing up in a small town (my whole country is a big small town) where everybody knows everybody, and whenever you try something different you know you're going to have to answer a lot of questions, it's really hard to take that first step. So you're not only facing your inner insecurities but also the fact that you might have an older sibling who's going to frown upon your recent career shift, that picture you uploaded, your wonderful new business idea; or your old high school friends might make fun of you for being yourself on Tiktok. It sucks. But you know what, who fucking cares? Apparently I do🤷‍♀️ , but I'm starting to realize how fucked up it is to live your life based on other people's opinions. I'm 36 years old and I've always felt like a big fish in a small pond, like I haven't been living to my full potential.

Starting this blog is my way of putting myself out there. It's only the first step and I plan to continue taking it one step at a time, following my intuition and ignoring the haters (inner and outer). Eventually, I will find my people and my people will find me, and it will be great. So today I'm leaving you with this question, why the hell not?